Hopeful for 2013...

Well, I am excited tonight.  Yes, I love the start of a new year because it shows how we can begin again.  I am excited because there might be something big happening with Sierra's orphanage.  I would love to share but right now I need a prayers that God will guide it along.....

I am also excited because I just feel that there will be many changes going on in my life and my family's lives during the 2013 year.  I do feel it will be good..or at least I am praying it is so.  When things begin to happen I will announce them.

Well I pray that this year more children will be adopted throught out the world then who was adopted in 2012.  I pray that Russia reopens it doors to adoption to the United States so families can be reunited with their children.

I do hope that in the summer of 2013 that I can return to China to once again help the forgotten and foresaken children of China.  But I am willing to wait and let God make the choice for me but I am saying............I do hope it is His will!!!

 

My thoughts do wonder....

I could not help but think of the orphans that I have met and the millions that I have not........living in the orphanages during Christmas time. It made me cry.

   It made me think how I don't appreciate the simple things I have in my life. We here in America forget or don't even know the struggles other areas of the world live with. I just wish.............yes I wish I could have each child in the world to knwo what unconditional love is.

  I would love to have their tummies filled and clothes that keep them warm if they are cold. I would love that they all have healthy mommy and daddies that love them.

I know.............it is not realistic.............but is my hope in my life time.

      My dream would be some time to work in orphanages through out the world.  To help out where they need me and most of all to share the love of Christ not by word but by action.............yes that would be my dream.  I would love doing that than any world trip or vacation...........it to me is where the beauty is at in the world............it truly is..
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I have been told my kids............stop posting things of facebook that are personal............so I am going to do it on my blog.  A place where I can share in my words what life is like having five beautful children while aching for more.  I know I am crazy.  I am 46 years old and I still want to be a mom to more children.  I don't think it is actual craziness as much as a calling.........a mission..........and natural feeling of wanting to love and provide love to the unforgotten and foresaken.  It is not to fill an empty need but to give a home to a child that yes............it only took a picture, diagnosis to say...........he is mine and my heart aches for him.  Many ask......."How did you know?"............my only true answer is God brings that knowledge to your soul and feel the need to go get your child and bring your baby........no matter the age.  I think if you have never experienced that then that is when it can come confusing.  My first experience was with Sierra.............I knew she was ours.........even when Mike question.............I knew this little will sit on my lap; she will laugh with us; she will sing with us; she will be called our daughter.  It is so deep and so real that everyone who tells you are crazy or ends your friendship with you because of the decision or calling............well they do not matter because the pull is so much bigger that either they will join you with God or they will see in the end the power of God and will know it is and always bigger than seeing a face in a picture.............it is seeing the face of your child and knowing.............deeply knowing..........those little feet will be in this home..........someday.....when God's timing is just right...........Because NOTHING can come inbetween the plan of God....